It's Mother's Day & I am Hiding My Head Under A Pillow

It's Mother's Day & I am Hiding My Head Under A Pillow

[If you're in a happy mood and looking for something more in line with celebrating mothers day you could try this. The rest of the post is a bit more sombre.]

Not Really, but I want to. You might be starting to recognise that I don't do very well with these dates that we are supposed to all celebrate at the same time, regardless of circumstance. Ask me to do something right there and then, anything that I think should be genuine and from the heart, and immediately I start to feel some-type-of-way about doing it. Am I the only one who feels like this? My mood is not helped by the fact that late last night I was down about someone else's grief. I have been following her (popular) blog for years now and lately, she has been going through a rough patch with two family member's deaths already this year. I felt so sad for her. The guy who just died has a little girl who is a mere two months older than Coco. That could be anyone right now, including me, but for grace.

So, I am dedicating this post to everyone who is is not feeling particularly chirpy or happy today. Perhaps:
You lost someone you cared deeply for, and you're stuck on hurt and angry. Or just not in the mood for happy.
You're a birth mum who has given your child the gift of being raised by another family/person, and that was the right thing for you, but Mothers Day is still hard.
You are thinking about your baby, how old he/she would have been today, if they were here.
You who would love to be called Mummy and are keeping a little box of goods for your future little one...

This post is for YOU. Your feelings are valid. Feelings just 'are'; and we sometimes over complicate them when we try to banish them away or pretend they're not true. Give your feelings a bit of room to be, and then let it go & do the right thing, whatever that may be for you.

This is my breath out and I am heading out for a walk shortly to focus on some happy and things I am grateful for. And to thank my Mums, including my grandma, again, who have been great role models and love me incredibly hard.

Have a Beautiful Day everyone.
x

ps I told a friend I didn't want to write a happy, happy mothers day message on the blog today, even though I was sat here attempting to because I thought that was what you did on mothers day on a motherhood blog. She called mid-attempt and told me that it was OK to be true to my feelings. Sooo freeing to hear that - thanks lady!

It's Mother's Day & I am Hiding My Head Under A Pillow