The Day Was Ehh, and I Felt Like Mehhh

The Day Was Ehh, and I Felt Like Mehhh

I've been feeling a little flat, in the last two days. It's been months of a succession of beautiful days but yesterday and today have felt like I should be under my duvet, in my bed, the whole day.

This morning, at about 5am I could feel a migraine coming on on the right side of my head. I get them from time to time, as does my Mum. I tried to get back to sleep but it was a losing battle, I have never found it possible to sleep through a bad migraine without medication, as much as I try. At 8am it felt like a full on migraine and I took some pills and Coco's Dad took her while I tried to get more sleep.

We have been taking Coco swimming. This little girl who loves bath time, does not enjoy the swimming class, at all. She screams, she cries and when she's calmed down and I try again, she just let's me know she's not up for it by crying some more. We gain nothing by me giving up on these classes this early and as long she is not suffering, I will continue to take her. The teacher has also assured me that it is normal and that some kids take a little while to get used to the environment.

After going back to sleep, I woke up just in time for our swimming class, got up and grudgingly got showered, dressed and headed out. We were just on the cusp of being late when we just managed to catch the bus, then I discovered I had left my Oyster card at home. So back home I went and I knew at this point that we were late. By the time we were both in our suits and ready by the pool the class was going to be over in two minutes.

I had made the extra effort to go despite feeling terrible because the swimming teacher said the right thing to to was to continue bringing her and get her used to the loud noises and environment. She knew the temptation would be to stop since it seems to make baby unhappy and Mum stressed out. So getting there and missing out after I had made all the effort was gut wrenching. 

I spoke to the teacher and explained what had happened, the reason why we were late. I didn't want  the class, teacher included, to think I was giving up because Coco isn't really progressing through the class just yet, (we're just going to be sitting on the sidelines till she feels better about it all). I also had a nagging, doubting moment and started to think again about if I wasn't trying to do 'too much', by signing her up for swimming lessons this early. But I remembered the reason why I signed up, we'll have access to a pool in a few months and I want her to be confident and for me to know what to do with her in the water as well. Theres other reasons too - safety, the freeing feeling of swimming etc. 

After the conversation, I put my shoes back on and I just felt tired. Every step was heavy as I made my way home. The whole series of events made me sad and annoyed. It's such a small, silly thing, but sometimes those hit hard too. And I reminded myself - it is not wrong to feel or acknowledge your feelings, it's what you do, how you act, when you have those feelings, that matters. 

I went to bed. I gave myself permission to wallow a little bit. I spent the rest of the day after I woke up relaxing, working on a new project (I will share details soon) and demanding cuddles from everyone I was in contact with, in the comfort of my home.

Do you get these type of days? What makes you feel better?
xxx

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The Day Was Ehh, and I Felt Like Mehhh